Psalm 46:10 “Be still and know that I AM GOD”. How do we become still when you are facing challenges one after the other? How do we believe God’s promises when it seems like never-ending trials in your life? Where do you get your strength to keep going? When will it get better?
Exactly a year ago, my family faced the hardest trial so far. We almost lost my husband, Jeremy, from a brain hemorrhage due to his multiple medical conditions. As a wife, I had a lot of anxiety, worries, and fear. The doctors told me that he had a very little chance to survive and if he survives he will be a vegetable. I wasn’t sure what to pray to God for; to make him survive because I fear of being alone or to take his life away because I fear of how I can manage to care for him and the boys at the same time.
“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.” – Isaiah 43:2
I have been struggling to fight with physical, mental, emotional, spiritual exhaustion since my husband started getting sick. I knew when I married him that I was going to face his medical challenges with him but I never knew it would be this hard especially having kids at the same time. When he gets sick and stays at the hospital I always prayed for healing every time, it all seemed like a routine while he was in the operating room for his brain. I won’t lie I almost prayed for God to take him because I was so tired. I was giving up. I was shutting down.
The word of God was the only light on my path. My daily devotions gave me such peace in my heart. All the thoughtful messages I would get every day from different people helped me calm my unstable heart. The Bible reminded me that our God has His reasons and purpose to why all of this was happening. Although I catch myself often times doubting His plans, He never once gave up reminding me that I was not alone.
Being part of the church is one of the many reasons I was able to handle the back to back challenges. The friends that have become our family have been our support, from being our prayer warriors, entertaining our kids and to providing cooked meals for us. God has shown me His mercies and love through the people around us.
I don’t know what God’s plans are for me and all I can do is trust Him with all my heart. I hope that with sharing my testimony I would be able to reach and touch every hearts that are weary. I hope I can inspire people to see the beauty of the unpaved roads leading to our faith in God. I hope to encourage those who are at the edge of giving up. At the end of the day, our faith is the only thing we can hold on to, being still and letting God take the lead.
– Elena Yonzon